and yeah,
today marks the end of 2007.

I'm sorry but I'm SO NOT looking to 2008.
coz I find myself destroying all my hardworks that i've achieved....my dreams?
and it's so disappointing.
I even find myself clueless upon what I'm doing!?
its like,
I JUST SIMPLY DONT UNDERSTAND MYSELF.

I keep thinking,
what is the thing I really want now!?
.........................................

well,
I just feel that I need to stay 100% firm,
and slowly move towards my dreams.





gawh!
haven been very happy with life recently.
When's you darm unlucky,
you will be DARM unlucky.
People around you will try to make you fcuking pissed.
Either is it purposely OR deliberately.

Whatever.

I dont wan any complications,
so I will give need to leave everything to GOD.

I have been very disobedient,
yet HE doesnt forsake me.


So in the year 2008,
I hope that GOD will accompany me and guide me through the new year,
help me to make decisions,
make me a better person,
and NOT to be soft-hearted anymore.


It SUCKs so much when the close frens around you plays with your temper.
thus,
in the year 2008,
I WILL NOT BE SOFT.
so dun ever try to mess with my temper.
(sometimes i need to lose my temper coz I've been enduring too much in year 2007)




haiz.
really got nth to say le.

HAPPY NEW YEAR 2008 PEOPLE!!!

X))

Have been coughing real badly.
father thinks perhaps I'm too heaty.


went to reborn my hair today,
and it's freaking straight now!
i feel so darm uncomfortable.
so im gg to wash my hair tml!!
HAHAHA.

mum latest fetish~
apple crumble pie.

HAHAHA.

met up with hubby after reborning.
he couldnt stop laughing at my hair la.
=_+

we went to watch 'Alvin the chipmunks'!
they are so super duper cute la!
HAHAHAAAA.

after that we went to eat at sake sushi.
=))

a
it always feel so great to have a friend who cherish you and remember you by heart.
We have been writing to each other for a very long time already.

However after i've mailed out the very last letter to her,
she didnt replied back.

few months passes,
years passed,
still no reply....
and till,
i've forgotten her.
I really feel very very very bad about it when i receive a letter from her the other day,
her christmas blessings...

i was very very touched that i almost teared.
our 11 years of friendship~

This is the BEST gift i have for christmas,
how about yours?

=)

i seriously, terribly need to SLIM DOWN!!
actually i wanted to reach my target weight when school reopens.
but it's quite difficult.
sad.
but nvm.
i will lose as much as possible!
HAHHAA.


i need to follow my cousin xia.
perhaps my next entry will be showing "I NEED TO SLIM DOWN".
HAHAHA.


i must be seriously with this lo!
if not i cannot fit into my CNY CLOTHES!!!
(I bought one size smaller)
THAT WILL BE SO JIALAT!
LOLs.


so in conclusion,
YINGYIN need to slim down.
HAHAHAAA.

JAVA REALLY SUCKS SO MUCH!
argh.
only complete like 2 classes,
and im TOTALLY SICK OF IT!!!
grrrr.

i played too much dota with brother recently.
we both can play like the whole day!?
LOLs.
coz he's just back from thailand and he misses playing dota with me,
so I've been very nice and haven been playing with him.
LOLs.

Some record-breaking results.
I managed to win him by quite abit.
The overall result:
HAHAHAA.
i killed 2o times and he killed 13 times for that match.
LOLs.

super funny la.
we conquered the enermies terrtitory,
killed the 5 of them!
HAHHAAA.



haiz.
so many projects to do.
AHHHHH!!!
entrepreneurships and psychology projects are THE WORST!

I die die must complete them ASAP!


haiz.
now it's already 1.43am,
and my brother is STILL dota-ing.
LOLs.
he's leading such a carefree life man.
not like me,
IM DYING!!!


>.<




Yesterday was our 21st anniversary.
I know i count 1 month faster.
but nvm.
It's our 21st anniversary on the 21st dec!
HAHAAH.
21.21.21.21.21.21!
21 is such a nice number.
I got a project due on that day.
lols.
=(


hubby tot it was thursday that day.
HAHHAHA.
and so,
he missed his bball.

basically,
we went orchard to look for his fren.
afterwhich we went to have pepperlunch for lunch.
walked.....crapped......around orchard.
we found a seat inside taka,
seated down....
AND FIGHT!

hahahhaaa.
I noe need to elaborate how i fight with him.
those who were told by jesslyn and grace on how i "bully" my bf will noe.
HAHAHHA.
dont start to point fingers at me okay!
HE FIGHTS BACK LA.
lols.


now he's accompanying his dao lao po,
leaving behind his xiao lao po who is blogging.
LOLs.

its pretty late.
think to be a pig!
nitees to ALL~

Helllooha!
Im here to crap aagain!
LOLs.


anyway,
my previous post got some errors!
I didnt turn up for my FNDB paper which is on a Friday
BUT NOT
OOPG paper which is on a Thurday!
HAHAHAAA
my baobei nu ur spot my mistakes.
Not bad huh~
LOLs

Some photos to blog about.
took this some weeks back!
HAHAAH
dave better dun be sad hor!

at hongkong cafe after church event.
with tim and jess that day.


taken the day before my OOPG paper.
it's a sunday if im not wrg.




Made this for my class some days back.
Hope that my class will be as bonded as eva!


CLASS OUTING THIS FIRDAY!!!
C175 TAKE NOTE!!
DETAILS WILL BE POSTED IN CLASS BLOG AGAIN!!!
=)))

Im feeling so much better.
No need to rely on gastric pills anymore.

Last week is term test week.
Papers are not that bad.
just that for some papers,
i know i can do much better but i didnt.
Also,
i didnt turn up for OOPG FNDB paper on thurs FRIDAY.
This makes me even more depressed.
But nevertheless,
Im feeling much better now.
=))


met hubby ytd.
It's like "FINALLY 3 weeks im able to see him la".
haaaa.
we went to CHIJMES to take photos for my CMSK project.
he's like so irritating la.
wants to be in the photos.
LOLs


after which,
we dine at MSQ's Long John Silver.
Both of us is like so amazed to see SSSSOOOO many crowds ytd at MSQ.
coz ususally is empty.
LOLs.


we walked for some time,
and decided to sing KBOX.
HAAAA.

We sang quite a number of songs.
darm funny lo.
hahaaaa.

hope tat there will be a next time.
lols.

x))

I've regretted.
I shouldnt stayed at home to mug.

I'm on the verge of giving up everything that i've achieved.
And guess what!?
I've screwed my CMaths paper.
i knew this would happen.
No more full marks.
I'm lucky,
coz my 'A' is still there.


hubby's right.
I shouldnt ponder too much,
I shouldnt care so much,
I shouldnt believe so much.
I've lost my stand.


I'm freaking mentally tired.


I never shared this before,
or rather,
I dont tok about my family matters here,
coz i think EVERYTHING'S shit.

I'm blogging coz my mind is exploding.
I dont want to sink into another depression again.





[P.S I strongly hopes that anyone who read this WILL KEEP THIS CONFIDENTIAL]





Father rants to me about PAST again ytd.
He told me too much, SO MUCH things that i dont wana know.
Spent almost ALL my maths revision time listerning to the past,
the PAST that i dun want to recall.
I dont see anything memorable to talk about.
Why must YOU always say about PAST to me?
YOU know that I've got a paper tomorrow,
so WHY FCUKING TELL ME ABOUT THE SHIT PAST!


I've took so long to over the PAST.
So why must you kick me back to square one?
Do you know that I'm very utterly disappointed in YOU?
Right,
I forget,
you DONT SPELL disappointed.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
..
.
.
.
..
.
.

I tried to talk some sense out of him,
it does not work.

eg.

Me: "Pa, I'm a failure once and now I'm on the path to success. I've wasted 10 years of my education life not achieving anything. I've regretted and now I'm back on my feets, striving my best to achieve what I can get. Pa, if i can do it, why cant you."

Pa:"I know I've failed. Who can help me to be successful? I have done so much for you and your brother........................................................................."


I've already put myself as an example,
he still does not "see" it.


He goes on and on and on telling me how some people have curse him, hate him, blame my mum and etc.
"When you are successful, everyone will cling onto you; When you failed, they leave you all alone to pick up the mess."
I find this so true.


I seriously need a time-out.





I've done enough for this family.
and from now on I'm not going to care.
if THEY dont wan to work,
fine,
I will earn my OWN money.

I dont see the point of working so hard for my family when THEY are doing nothing.
and Im sad to say this,
I rather be brought up in a Single-Parent family.
coz i noe myself that I will be 1000000000 times better.
at least I will not be so hurt as compared to now.






"All i ever wish is to have a photo with the four of us inside.
I know to many people this is stupid.
11 years of heartbreak....
how many more years to count?
A broken marriage will never be the same as before.

However,
I will still carry this childish wish that I had...
This will be the best and the most priceless gift I want in my life...
just the four of us..."

LAST SUNDAY PICS!!

(25.11.o7)



went out with grace, weiyi, timothy, jesslyn, weixiong.

purpose was to celebrate weixiong's birthday!

mistaken the date!

his birthday is like on the 24th Nov?

HAHAA.

nevertheless,

bought him a black ZEN stone.

He was of cuz TOUCHED la!



we played pool that day.

grace, jesslyn and me got to learn how to play!

so fun la!

shall play pool often!

x))



after pool, we went to watch Enchanted!
I will rate that movie 5 stars!

For those who have not watch the movie yet,

u better watch.

if not u will regret!



timothy left after the movie, while the rest of us went suntec's fish and co to have our dinner!
Some shots taken.

grace accidentally activate the mutiple shots functions.
Thus, all these funny shots.


Wei yi is trying to act cute.